I've been where you are...
It’s hard to believe, even for me now, that for decades of my life I felt directionless and depressed. Perpetually swinging from the highest highs to the lowest lows. I used sex, relationships, drugs, alcohol, eating, not eating, shopping, work and even spirituality as ways to escape and avoid the dark, vast, void that I felt within myself. I had multiple failed suicide bids and all of my relationships were strained or non-existent. The saying goes that no man is an Island, yet that is exactly how I felt. I found myself as a baron desolate island surrounded by deep waters of emotion that I just couldn’t seem to navigate.
I was always a very perceptive and sensitive child. Like many people who struggle with addiction and emotional overwhelm, I grew up in a traumatic environment and also one of oppressive religious dogma. As a result, I engaged in many addictive behaviors as a way of avoiding conflict and emotional abuse within the family home. As many who have been raised in orthodox religious surroundings, there was no freedom of mind or spirit in my childhood home, which is vital to a child's growth and happiness. I graduated school at 16 and found the impetus to leave my home situation shortly therafter. I didn't know what I was in search of, but I knew I hadn't yet found my truth. This lead to my family members shunning and cutting me off, even to this day, over twenty years later. Having been sheltered from the outside world up until my mid teens, I was naive and unaware of the depths of my suffering or the world at large. I started using drugs, alcohol and sex as a way to connect to others, and numb my pain. Trying to find my way in the world with no worldly education. As an overachiever in my early twenties I built up a solid reputation in the field of film and television and went from stylist to production designer for commercials in the 10 years of my film career. At this point I was finding success financially but I was working eighteen hours a day and my health was failing, I was drinking or using drugs when I wasn't working, and eventually it caught up to me in the way of a massive nervous breakdown in 2009.
I made changes, so can you.
Shortly after my nervous breakdown and subsequent failed suicide bid, I skeptically visited an intuitive healer in Los Angeles, CA. I was extremely suspicious of holistic healing, but I knew I wanted to try anything at all that might put me on the path of some answers. The intuitive was located in a wellness center which to me felt more honest than someone on the street asking me if I wanted my palm read. I felt in my body that I had a greater purpose than I was currently fulfilling and I was desperate to find the will to keep living. I was open to finding anything that might alleviate the emotional pain I was in. During my first session I felt so seen and validated, that I knew that there was s spiritual and holistic component missing from my life. What has followed since then has been a life dedicated to learning esoteric tools and practical spirituality. I began with sobriety from drugs and alcohol, I worked with holistic coaches, acupuncturists, and intuitive's for many years to support myself first and foremost. I then got my certification in nutrition and holistic wellness at the Institute for Integrative Nutrition and my Certification in the Dr Usui method of Reiki. I have seen countless healers here in the United States and India for support in the fields of Energy Work, Astrology, Ayurveda, Accupuncture, Nutrition, Holistic Chiropracters, Muscle Testing, Natropath, Herbalism, Past Life Regression, Hypnotism, Sound Healing, Breathwork, Talk Therapy, Yoga, Tarot, Massage, Cranio Sacral, Astrology, Shamans and Psychic Mediums. In the pursuit of my own personal healing, I found what works for me to be an amalgamation of many modalities. The healer heals themselves first and foremost. As a healing practitioner it is my goal to empower my clients as their own best healers.. The goal with my sessions is to feel seen, unconditionally loved and supported, but ultimately to build trust in oneself. The healer heals themselves.
I only practice what I know, and what I have direct experience in healing for me personally. I'm a prime example of a life seemingly lost then built back into a life of purpose, clarity and fulfillment. It can be hard to invest time, energy and resources into our self care and self love. Fear can be hard to overcome, but if you are like me, you know that the investment you make in your health and happiness, is the only thing truly worth investing in.
I am a certified Holistic Life & Wellness Coach (CHHC) and a certified Reiki energy healer and to date I have helped thousands in their self-healing journeys including clients who have gone on to become healers themselves. I was a Senior Practitioner at Maha Rose Center for Wellness in Brooklyn, NY from 2012 until February 2017 when I embarked on my private practice. I recieved my nutritional and holistic health coaching certification from the Institute for Integrative Nutrition and I practice the Dr. Usui method of Reiki healing as well as taking dozens of healing courses with spiritual guides over the past 10 years to deepen my intuitive practice. I am able to work in the realms of medium and clairsentient, meaning I have the ability to experience and feel another persons past, present and emotional energetic states. I am able to clearly pinpoint areas of dis-ease within the body, mind and spirit, and with my knowledge of wellness and nutrition as well as energy, I work with them to bring my clients back into balance holistically. I have held and taught hundreds of classes including Moon Circles, Empath Empowerment, Inner Child Healing, Astrology, Sound Healing, Grief Circles and more. I wrote a book on Empath Empowerment as well as Created the Reiki Mantra and Affirmations Oracle Decks. I have written for Teen Vogue and had a popular podcast segment for DreamFreedomBeauty. Today, you can hear me on the New Story Podcast located on iTunes and Spotify, or follow my weekly Energy Report newsletters to tune into my style of teaching and healing.